Sunday, August 30, 2009

i told my mom a part of me is depressed.

she asked why.
i couldn't answer.

she persisted and i said,
im depressed about what could've been. but it doesn't make sense because what is and what was can never be what could've been and that what could've been can never be known from what is and what was but merely speculated. so i guess being depressed about what could've been is but a composite of what is and what was.

i told my mom good nite.

went into my room.

the phone rang. talked. hang up.

i nearly cried.

im pathetic.

Monday, August 24, 2009

as much as i hate saying it..

in the end~

we still chose the life we're living..

sigh~

Sunday, August 16, 2009

always remember andrew.. we chose the life we're living~

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

cheers dude

another year closer to true peace

Thursday, August 06, 2009

i realized... whenever i feel down and depress...

i no longer have anyone i could talk to about it... it used to be you... but the situation has changed... your position has changed and therefore i can't tell you those things anymore...

i've lost my sister and my integrity... and on days like this... i feel that what i've gained is not what i truly want...

but yet... the clock cannot be reset... life cannot be turned back...

for things i have no control of, i shall endure... but for how long?

and if you ever read this... please don't ask me about it...

don't ask why...

just don't ask at all and let me put up my smile...