my 2nd ex has been calling..

and i have no idea why..

i've been avoiding picking up the phone
or even replying her sms's..

same too with my old high school frens..





i guess i just don't want my past to resurface
and meet with the people i know and love now..

love for the many and hatred for one and one only

i believe in people too easily
yet i have no reason to doubt you
but if my fears turn out to be true
then i shall return to being nobody to you

shit

the mask of strength i wear
hides the sadness of my failure

i hate this race