i miss the konn manns whom i've abandoned..

i miss the life i had before making such decisions..

if there's a balance that i can make, i would..

but i know, as long as i hang out with them..

i'll be the biggest hypocrite..

..

i long for my old life even though its wrong~

i hate feeling like im missing out in life

i hate tasting the pleasures and am forced to restraint myself

i hate how im not contented with what i have

i hate it when people dont listen to me

i hate waking up knowing how the day will end

i just wanna get by..